DAY 7- I feel like I am on an emotional roaler coaster. I walked into work this morning and found myself looking at those passing me by and asking myself why can't I be them. Why did I let myself get this bad? I told myself, "You should be ashamed! You are the slowest walker here. Pick up your feet and go already. Stop being LAZY DAMN IT!!"
It really got me thinking, can I do this? I know I can eat well, I have been for a week. But can I stop being LAZY and start exercising. When I get home after working all day, can I stop myself from going to sit on the couch where I reside until its time for bed? When Landon asks me to wrestle with him, can I chase him around the house instead of having him charge at me? Can I stop looking at the people around me and get jealous because they are smaller than me or walk faster than me?
I never thought I was a superficial person, but am I?
We all have our days when we get so self conscious and we start bad-mouthing ourselves.
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Be kind to yourself and be proud of your accomplishments, as small as they may be today. Remember you could be back where you started and feel even worse.
Take it one day and one step at a time. Maybe play outside with Landon kicking the ball as a start?
You are doing great and you are making a change, that's what's important and you have to remember that constantly.
Our walk on Thursday will kick your butt - PROMISE LOL
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I sometimes go to Zumba at the work gym on Tuesdays at 5pm and ocassionally outside of work for $5 walk-in in East Windsor at 6pm on Monday/Wednesday. If you ever want to go and try the East Windsor one with me, let me know! I'd luv a workout buddy :)
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