DAY 20-
So the weekends still prove to be the hardest. My husband and I were able to go out to eat just the two of us Saturday night. Don was craving Moe's so I suggested we go there. I ordered two Funk meisters with chicken which came with chips. Don also requested some queso. After I finished the tacos I went straight to the chips and queso. I had more than 1 but less then 20 chips before I decided I needed to stop myself. I grabbed the lid to the queso and thought lets bring it home for another time. Don wasn't finished so he continued to eat. Shortly thereafter he asked if I would be mad if he ate it all.... No I wasn't mad but it was really hard for me to sit there and wait for him to eat it all as I continued to hold myself back from drinking the queso and shoving chips down my throat. I had to do something, so I responded with will you be mad if I go to CVS while you finish up. He said no so off I went.
I was totally torn between spending time with my husband that we don't get often or making sure I didn't eat anymore unhealthy and not needed food. I think I made the right choice. I need to make myself better so that I can be the wife and mother my family deserves. I do wish that my husband would join me in this change though.
On another note, I was presented with a challenge to find a way that would provide another daily motivator. I struggled with creative ways to do this when my husband, out of the blue, suggested that we share his motivational board in our room. He said I could put the amount I already lost and images of what my goal is. I thought that was creative and a great idea! Now I just need to find what I am looking for to put on it.
Welcome Back! I am VERY proud of your choice - while I read your entry I too thought, how difficult it had to be leaving your husband, since being alone is such a precious time - But as it turned out, I'm glad he understood and is helping in your journey - even if it's by adding "The Motivator" Board.
ReplyDeleteYou could Add a Plane and some Amusement Rides to the board to start? (AM I saying too much?)
I too have been struggling, I honestly think it's the amount of things we do on a daily basis that wear us out until we don't want to do anything but sit and relax - and for me that includes eating.
Be proud of your achievements, you are and will get there. One day at a time - or so I remind myself when I put the chocolate down - LOL
Keep those post coming and keep up the good work.
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BTW - for the dry mouth, can you try some lemon with your water? It usually helps me.
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